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Sep 25, 2008
I'm back in Key West you guys :)
I'm happy. I've been working out like crazy as you probably know if you know anything about me lol. Already shed 4 pounds now I need to lose 6 more and I'm good. Back into my clothes. HP is on its way back into an inbox near you so look for it. Thanks for all the emails too guys. I appreciate you all so much. I really do. Tatiana is great. She's such an angel. The kids love her to pieces too, and I make sure she's right there with me when I'm doing my yoga. She likes to watch mommy <33
Okay, so continue to hit me up and things will be back to normal in no time. I just didn't want you to think I forgot about you. I could never forget about you guys!
Posted at 06:51 pm by f0rever-me
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Sep 19, 2008
hey everyone :)
Hope all is well with you guys. I've been getting your emails, and I decided to hit you all back at once. Tatiana is fine, she's getting prettier every day and Brandon is absolutely in love with her smh. It reminds me so much of when Chaya and Sarea were first born. He would just sit there and stare at them, and he does the same thing with Tati. She's a dream baby btw. Like Alijah was. She doesn't cry much, she's very alert and she likes to watch everything and she loves to be up under me which is fine because she's my little princess :) I miss my kids, I must say...since I'm still in MD. I will be for about 5 more days. The baby shouldnt fly until she's 5 or 6 months actually but I have to get back to key west, and I have the feeling she'll be absolutely fine lol. Plus the kids can't wait to see her. Maria calls me everyday asking when Im bringing her little sister home. Sooo cute ^_^
Anyhow, I'll be off the face of the earth for a while. HP ppl you'll still get your chapters so calm down. I wrote a bunch of pages and I can send them out easily, but when I reach the end, that's gonna be it for a while until we all settle into a routine at home.
Brandon is leaving to go back to florida tomorrow so he can be with the kids. gosh I miss them like crazy. *sigh* I'll be seeing them soon though, and you all will be hearing from me soon :)
love you bunches!
Posted at 08:01 pm by f0rever-me
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Sep 12, 2008
Tatiana is here you guys and she's absolutely beautiful, and very quiet which I love. I just got home so I need time to get things situated but I just wanted to let you all know. Her bday is of course on the tenth as is madison's and nadia's. Oh and thank you all so much for trhe bday wishes for me and the kids. I love you all for that :) I'll get back to you soon!
Posted at 09:22 am by f0rever-me
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Sep 7, 2008
In total, I got 54 emails (from different ppl mind you) about my post yesterday, 23 IMs and however many comments *sigh* If I have to say one more time that we are not actively looking then I'm going to scream. First of all I am pregnant and I'm about to have a baby in a few days so nothing is going to happen for months I'm sure. Second, I have nine kids not counting the other kids in my house or around my house. This entire thing is something that has to be planned with the utmost caution and consideration. Lastly, I know you bitches aren't on ME like that, which is why I said I find all of this interesting as hell. Uh huh...I'm not stupid. For the ones that do have some insane girl crush on me, you do know that we wouldn't be getting down right? lol Yeah...you should read closely. Now this is why I'm not actively looking for someone, it's not like I'm just consumed with the thought of doing a threesome lol. I know a lot of girls wanna get a chance to be with Brandon *sigh* calm down bitches. Let me explain something else, neither me or Brandon are pressed to do this it's a fantasy for him so being his wife, I'm obliging him. Once. No it's not something we're gonna do over and over. If yall wanna experiment then do that on your own time. I'm not about to have a bunch of random women drooling over my husband because while I'm extremely confident in my marriage, I don't do disrespect no matter how subtle it is. I'm not accusing anybody of being disrespectful but I am warning you not to let it become disrespectful. That's all I'm going to say about that.
Now, thank you for all the compliments very...sweet but stop with the damn emails and comments and so on. smdh.
Posted at 05:42 am by f0rever-me
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Sep 6, 2008
I've been getting a flooood of emails and IM's and evidently comments on the tb which I'm just now seeing lol. I can't believe all of yall! smh
Now let me say this: Brandon and I will scout ppl out, and reach out to ppl accordingly. It's not like we're taking applications or anything. It's semi-private, as far as us going about picking someone, and the only reason I posted about Robyn was because she said it was okay and that it might help me make a decision. Oh, and btw I had no idea so many of my friends had girl crushes on me lmao very interesting. That's all I'm gonna say. So yeah, we're not seeking ppl out. Rob just happened to come to both of us in a very low key and polite way which was the perfect way to do it (hint hint folks).
Chrissy, I read your comment too, and you're right about her being younger hmm...she's only 19 *taps chin* I'm still thinking.
Posted at 12:41 pm by f0rever-me
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Sep 5, 2008
Since I've talked about the fact that I'd definitely do a threesome with my husband and another female (with no extra personal girl on girl action) I've gotten so many questions about it. One of the most interesting questions came from my friend whom I affectionately call Rob though. Rob is a female, let me clear that up first lol. Okay, so we were on the phone, like we always are. I'd just put Alijah to bed (my baby has a summer cold) and I was sitting in Brandon's lap just talking on the phone. I had Rob on speaker and we were both talking to her pretty much, then the threesome thing came up. Rob was wondering if I was serious about doing one. So I said of course, anything my husband wants to do...I'll do it. That's what you do as a wife, if you're not a selfish wife then you'll do anything for your husband. So, I got that out the way (along with loving stares at Brandon) and I asked her if she would do one with her boyfriend, who's also a good friend of mine ^_^ and she said she already had. No surprise there, trust me. Robby is a freak to the bone. She may be just as freaky as me lol, if not freakier. Of course that made Brandon's eyebrows fly up...he's nasty lol. I asked her who she picked and how she knew she could trust the girl and all that, because I'm curious. So she told me she picked her bestie and she trusted her completely. Then she asked who me and Brandon would pick. Of course he had something to say, but it was on point. He was saying he'd want the girl to know how to keep her mouth shut and be extremely beautiful and willing. I pretty much echoed him. I had to throw in the fact that she couldn't fall all in love with my damn husband because...trust me, Brandon gives a bitch the business and it will make you fall in love. So Rob laughed and then she said "Well, what about me?" O_O I was too shocked to speak lol. She'd just offered to be our third person pretty much! Of course I thought she was playing at first, so after the initial shock I laughed. She was serious though. She wanted me and Brandon to consider her seriously and then out comes the fact that she's always had a "girl-crush" on me. Then came the compliments I wont bore you with them lol. So after getting our word that we'd consider her we got off the phone and Brandon and I were faced with a decision to make. Now, Rob is my bitch, she has been for years. We're not best friends though, which is a plus. Can't have a threesome with your best friend lol, it's too personal and awkward. Rob is beautiful, she's private, she's cool, I love her to death, Brandon is cool with her but are we willing to make her a third? That's the question. Please no self righteous responses. Thanks. Oh, and Rob said it was completely okay to post this story, because I wasn't going to. So, thoughts?
Posted at 06:53 pm by f0rever-me
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So me and Brandon's new friends came over last night with their 8 kids...let me see if I can remember their names...hmmm *tapping chin* the girls have really hippie names which I think is cute ^_^
okay we have Willow and Winter (twins! yay!), Golden, Sky, Rain, Malik, Kaleb, and Noah. Whew! I think I got them right lol. Lord knows she'd have a time getting all my babies names. So they all came over and we had dinner :). Sushi, sake (none for me and the kids), and jasmine rice yum! Then we went into the den and had some green tea while the SIXTEEN kids played. 16 folks. It sounded like a cafeteria in my house but luckily Chloe and Sean have their kids on lock so when they needed to be quiet, they were quiet. These ppl are really great. Sean has done a lot of community organizing (um...Palin?) and so has Chloe, and they're big on volunteering, they're voting for Barack ^_^, and they're doing well for themselves. I told them they should go to the voter registration Brandon is throwing on the 12th. It's a whole cookout, type thing. I'll be in the house with my new baby. They said they'd come, and they invited us to Winter and Willow's bday party the next week, which means her babies are virgos! Yay! Now I'd love to go but I don't like taking new babies outside luckily Chloe understood s she said she'd come visit little Tatiana and bring a gift which of course she does not have to do. Tatiana is already spoiled! She's already a daddy's girl too, just like Chaya and Sarea. When I was preggers with them they used to always move around when they heard Brandon's voice, same with Tatiana. She goes crazy when she hears Brandon talking to her smdh. She's going to be a damn mess lord help me. But anyway! Chloe and Sean are great! Nothing annoyed me the entire night and Im pregnant so I get annoyed at the drop of a hat these days lol. So far so good.
Oh and I'm not about to comment on the ridiculousness that was the RNC...I won't do it. *shakes head*
Posted at 05:28 am by f0rever-me
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Sep 4, 2008
Your official guide on how to survive the confessions
First and foremost, BREATHE lol. I've gotten so many emails telling me how you guys just stared at the screen for a few seconds without breathing. Don't do that. I want all of you to live :) Okay, I dropped the huge bomb first, I know. I did that on purpose to get this all out of the way. Aren't you glad you didn't have to wait till the end to find out? Sidenote: If you haven't gotten the confessions, it's your own fault don't ask me anything.
Okay, now some of you feel completely betrayed, you feel like I'm a liar and blah blah blah. Let me help you out...I don't care how you feel. The confessions are for me and me alone. They're not for me to assess your emotions. I have very good reasons for not telling you anything that sensitive and explosive. Stop being selfish and suck it up. Moving on, some folks are saying they're scared of me now *haha* look, I'm the first to admit that my past is harsh but you have no reason to be scared of me. I only attack out of self defense you know that. Plus, I'm pro-peace and I don't do anything violent anymore (unless my life or my children's lives are threatened) I'm practically a monk! lol No need to be afraid of me.
Also, some of you are calling me some pretty harsh names, I would own up to them except for...it's not who I am now. Right now is the absolute only thing that is real and that matters. Plus, being who I know I am...I know what my nature is. I'm not the things you've accused me of being. I was. I'm not now though. I apologize if you feel so strongly about my past that you no longer want to speak to me. I still love you though :)
Next...ppl have called me a hypocrite. I don't think so, and if you're at a loss for the meaning of the word then may I kindly direct you to www.dictionary.com? they're awesome. Because I've handled CJ and Nijaia's situation the way I have does not make me a hypocrite...you're off for even thinking that. 0_o
So, I think that's about it. I refuse to answer and probing questions about Mr. Sir. You know better. Anything concerning me is fine. I'm an open book. He's not. So for those of you making a huge deal out of me protecting him tooth and nail...you're right. Absolutely. I do, I will and I always have. THe only person I'd protect more is Brandon. I believe in keeping ppls lives private though. I protect lots of ppl, but I do admittedly fiercely protect him and he does the same. It's just the way it is and if Grandpa of all people can't convince me to stop protecting him then what makes you think you can? While I don't have to always be around him or talk to him, while I can distance myself from him and leave him alone, cut him off and all that good stuff I will always protect him. Hell, I'm still protecting Shawn's black ass!
So, your best bet on surviving all of this is breathing, and then letting go...then deleting! lol I'm open to any questions and or concerns just no judging or accusing. You will be ignored and I don't give a damn how it makes you feel. Stop talking to me if it's a problem. I wont cry. Like I said, this confession is strictly for me! Trust me, I do enough for everyone else already. Let me have my confessions. You'll realize how grateful you are that you let me get this out later on...trussssst me. I always know what I'm talking about.
Posted at 01:13 am by f0rever-me
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Sep 3, 2008
Somehow, Brandon and I managed to meet a couple who also has a lot of kids. I can't tell you how happy I am about it!! I may not seem like a big deal to you ppl out there with no husband and no children, but to me and Brandon it's a huge freakin deal. All day we talk to each other, and the kids. When I say kids I mean our children plus the grown ass ppl that live in our house. Jamal and Danni are the closest ppl we have that can actually relate to us because they have more than one child, now CJ and CJ can join that group too. Still, we've never had any friends that have just as many kids as we do, so nobody can fully relate. Okay, so we were at the store, Target to be exact (I'm anti wal-mart), and I'm telling Ali that she can't have a Hannah Montana backpack, because I don't allow my babies to wear anything that doesn't depict ppl who look just like them (figure out what that means), then I'm telling Lucky that the soda in the food area is not free damn soda *sigh* this little boy... He decided the soda was free and told Alijah and they kept begging me if they could just use their hands to sip the soda. *angry mother face* Brandon offered to buy them a cup of soda to share, but they protested saying the soda was free. Some other little boy overheard that there was free soda and he started begging his parents, asking if he could get some free soda too. This is how we met lol. So her name is Chloe and his name is Sean they have 8 kids 3 boys 5 girls and they don't live too far from the island. Ironically they live where we used to live. Right in the same neighborhood. We talked so freakin much in the store that we ended up shopping together. Turns out Chloe worked for a top notch modeling agency who's name I won't mention then moved and thought of applying to Neves as a photographer. Her husband, Sean is a video game programmer for a top notch company which makes Brandon happy lol and we pretty much know everything about each other now, though the kids were begging to go home, we stayed and chatted. Oh and we're both vegetarians! yay! We rock lol. So our new friends are coming over for dinner tomorrow and I'm sure we'll hit it off even more.
Posted at 03:44 pm by f0rever-me
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The kids are back so excuse my lack of updates lol. I've been working like a mad woman getting them back into the swing of school, helping with the new rush of their little friends, avoiding Angela Brickwater, and shopping for the biggest truck I can find...again, to haul all these little monsters around. I told Brandon we're gonna have to break down and get a Mini Van =/ he's not happy about that at all. We have too many kids not to have one or two though. Lil B may be going back with his mother. I know most of you don't understand why I would so easily give him back but, London is his mother, and nobody can stand between that bond. Now, besides that is the fact that she's trying to better herself which I always can appreciate. She's since apologized to both me and Brandon and I forgave her instantly. Brandon of course had to take a minute to forgive her, and I don't fault him for that. SHe put us through a lot of shit, but she was obviously going through something in her own life to cause us so much pain. It's behind us though, and I'm willing to help her in any way possible. So we had tea yesterday and we talked. I told her that if she wanted Lil B back that she should bring him over to our house every day for a while until she really gets into the swing of motherhood. So we're kind of in a co-parenting agreement right now. While I'll miss my little honey...I have to prepare for my daughter. She'll be here in a matter of days. So we're getting the kids used to the idea that they have to be quieter (imagine that) that they have to be gentle with the new baby and that they have to be nice. I'm sure you all remember Chaya being mean to my baby Alijah. In addition to all of that, we have to take all the kids, in the midst of them going to school and other classes, and spend quality time with them to let them know we haven't forgotten about them and that we still love them just the same. Today when they get home we're having a family meeting and they're all gonna voice their opinions and feelings about Tatiana coming. It's hard to give each child individual attention, especially since I have two sets of twins, and to establish individuality... My kids usually don't have a problem with that part though lol. It's still important to nurture that individuality though, especially since their on such a tight schedule at home and school, it's easy to lump them all together and make the uniform. This is why I stopped working. They require me to be home at all times. If I have to work then I do it from home, while they're at school as you guys know. So me and Brandon have been having quite a time preparing for our new little baby. It's exhausting too. The other day, Mr Sir came over for tea :) that was nice. We got a mini break that we all needed *sigh* So guys seven more days until Tati makes her debut. Are you ready?
Posted at 07:33 am by f0rever-me
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